The Hungry Runner Girl: This hurts to write.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

This hurts to write.

Femoral Stress Fracture.

No Boston and no running for that matter.

It is what I do from this point forward that truly shows what kind of athlete and person I am.

This is what makes me, this is who I am.

Of course I feel like crap and I have stopped wearing mascara because every time I hear the word Boston (unless we are talking about a Boston creme pie) I start to cry uncontrollably but that is okay and that is normal. Boston has been my number one dream/goal/obsession/thought/love affair for the last 6 months and now it is gone (for this year that is).

At least I know I can pull off a 1:30 half-marathon when I have a femoral stress fracture....don't know if that is Bad A or I am just mentally not very smart and blocked the pain and ran through it.

I try to be my most positive self here on the blog because I know that a lot of you reading this are going through WAY HARDER things in your life and hungryrunnergirl is a bright spot in your day so if you are having a bummer day already maybe check back at about 4 for a post about Billy cuddling the iPad or me eating ice cream for the 24th day in a row.

I definitely feel like throwing in the towel and letting silly worries like.....who is going to read my blog anymore now that I can't run Boston and that I am out of the game for a while or that I am going to loose my speed/motivation and dedication to running........but I CAN'T. All I can do is hope for the best, give Billy a big hug and remember that MANY STAR ATHLETES (if not all) have experienced MAJOR setbacks and they COME BACK stronger and smarter than ever.

It is the hard times in life that show us what we are made of. I am showing myself and the world that this too shall pass and I will cry and let myself feel sad but it is only going to make me a stronger and more passionate runner than ever before.

I will be there next year Boston and Heartbreak Hill.....you will wish you never met me.

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During this recovery process I will be writing a series of posts dedicated to injury prevention and recovery along with the normal everyday randomness.....hope you still come back to read:)

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What would you do......

Still go to Boston and cheer everyone on or switch your plane tickets (remember we are poor) so you can do the New York marathon in November?

445 Comments:

At April 12, 2011 at 7:10 PM , Rick and Nikki said...: YOU need to watch "Run for your life." Even though you can't run, it doesn't mean you can't indulge in it through mass media! It is about the NY Marathon - the beginnings and history behind it. It's a running documentary. It's amazing. It made me cry - and it inspired me to write a speech on the marathon for one of my classes. I am going to further educate non-runners in this world and convert them! Anyway, love you bestie. This too shall pass. I say rest. Wait for it to heal, you don't need the stress of another marathon within the same year of this injury.
At April 12, 2011 at 7:14 PM , Mommyrunsoncoffee said...: So sorry Janae! you have an amazing spirit and you will be back better than ever when you heal. I can't wait for the "comeback" story . In the meantime, I will enjoy reading whatever you write about....especially candy and ice cream:).
You are a rockstar in life and your blog is something I look forward to everyday!
Heal up, sista!
At April 12, 2011 at 7:23 PM , Katy said...: you are my hero :)
At April 12, 2011 at 7:23 PM , Christina said...: Prayers and hugs coming from Virginia for you. A hug all the way from the East Coast... now THAT'S a big hug with a lot of endorphins. Please take care of yourself so that you will heal (and then come back and kick a certain New England town's marathon in the booty).
P.S. I will STILL be reading your blog. :)
At April 12, 2011 at 7:42 PM , Alison said...: I am totally going to be the last person to write so this is probably old news, but

WE LOVE YOU!!!

So sorry about Boston, but you need to take care of yourself. Get your leg healed and then tear it up next year. Sometimes (especially when I am sad), I like to think of my life like a movie. Now, if everything went as planned the movie would be boring. But you are the heroine, and as the heroine you need to overcome some kind of adversity (not running Boston in 2011) so that when your dreams come true later on (KILLING Boston in 2012), it will seem that much sweeter. Maybe I am a little bit of a weirdo for thinking like that.

Also, I vote NYC in November. You would run right by my apartment, and I would totally come and cheer for you (and so would a million other people)!
At April 12, 2011 at 7:52 PM , Anonymous said...: You are brave and AMAZING and I hope you switch those plane tickets! You've earned that marathon!!
At April 12, 2011 at 7:53 PM , Beth said...: This hurt to read =( I say go to NYC, and spend this time focused on you, your loved ones and things you CAN do now that you aren't running as much. You will come back stronger than ever!
At April 12, 2011 at 8:03 PM , Angie said...: Sorry I'm late on this - Just wanted to say that you are truly an inspiration to us all and I hope you have a speedy recovery! I've read about how you've invested so much time and practice into your training and this news really breaks my heart as well! Just remember though, there will be so many more marathons! You will have no problem qualifying for Boston again! *Hugs* for you!!!
At April 12, 2011 at 8:15 PM , Adrianna said...: *prayers, hugs, smiles*

i will always come back and read this blog...its one of my absolute faves! you are such an inspiration, no matter what, and just an all-around fun, smart, beautiful chic. you will get through this, and in the meantime, feel free to cry, vent, share your feelings. you are human (an awesome one at that!) and thats why i love coming back here each day.
At April 12, 2011 at 8:29 PM , Zaneta @ Runner's Luck said...: I'm praying for you girl!! Seriously... You are strong and will come out stronger after all this! You are Miss Speedy Gonzalez! Boston will still be there next year! :) If it were me, I'd switch my plane tickets (I'm poor too)...
Love ya Janae!! (and I'm sure everyone will still read your blog!) ;)
At April 12, 2011 at 8:34 PM , Rachel said...: Big Big Hug for you Janae!! I am so sorry this had to happen, you are a strong person and will get through this! Love you and know that so many people wish the best for you and a speedy recovery!
At April 12, 2011 at 8:46 PM , Carina said...: Sad for you. :(
At April 12, 2011 at 8:47 PM , Gracie said...: Sending you a million internet hugs. I know this is so disappointing for you but you know what? You are already really strong physically. This will just build up mental strength! You will be ready to take on anything once you're back. AND I WILL SEE YOU IN BOSTON IN 2012!
At April 12, 2011 at 8:50 PM , Michelle said...: I am so sorry!!!! Oh my my heart is sad, but you are a strong woman!! I will keep reading no matter what you write. You are such an inspiring woman regardless of what you are doing in your life. Praying for you!!!
At April 12, 2011 at 8:58 PM , Kasey said...: I say switch your tix. I'll still read every day and I love me some injury prevention and recovery talk!
At April 12, 2011 at 9:06 PM , Diana Tries-A-Tri! said...: Oh miss lady ... injuries are just crap, huh? I'm sorry that you have to go through this. Eat some ice cream, swedish fish and give that handsome husband of yours a big ole hug. We'll stick around that's for sure! And I know you'll be there next year kicking some MAJOR tail!
At April 12, 2011 at 9:06 PM , The Turtle said...: I am so sorry. To a much lesser extent I know that feeling of disappointment having had to miss the last two half marathons I signed up for. I hope you have a speedy recovery. Hugs!
At April 12, 2011 at 9:13 PM , Leisa said...: I agree with some of the other comments, cry it out, and grieve!

As I was reading this post, my first thought was that Heavenly Father probably has some other AWESOME plans for you. Maybe it'll be an amazing NYC marathon, discovering a new passion, or something else that will be even more amazing than running Boston. But grieve first, then look to the future!

Your amazing, and I have no doubt that there is a lot more amazingness in your future!
At April 12, 2011 at 9:23 PM , Margot said...: Janae! I am so sorry to hear about your leg but I know you'll come back stronger than ever :). Everyone will be cheering for you as you get better.

And buy the tix to NYC - I've heard it's amazing !
At April 12, 2011 at 9:50 PM , Nicole Wagner Makeup said...: wow. 419 comments should show you that we all know what kind of amazing person you are Janae. You are remarkable. I am ashamed that I know I would not react the way you are. it makes me love you and want to hug you!. You are right though...this is going to make you even more amazing!!!! call me or email me if you want to VENT things that you don't want to write here:) you are a hero to me.
hang in there.
love ya.
At April 12, 2011 at 11:17 PM , JANE said...: Switch the ticket, girl. Save Boston for when you can kick its trash :)
At April 12, 2011 at 11:22 PM , Lauren said...: I'm a little late on this one, but I'm so sorry to hear about your stress fracture! You're still absolutely amazing, and there is so much more to you than being a runner. Focus on your other strengths for the time being and use it to learn more about yourself. You will kick bootie next year at Boston, and it will be there shaking in fear waiting on you :)
At April 12, 2011 at 11:57 PM , Heather Forcey said...: I love your spirit and would not even consider not reading what you have to say each day simply because you are injured and can't run or write about it. Good grief! You are just a spot of sunshine each day when I click on your blog. You hang in there. You are going to be back running in no time!
At April 13, 2011 at 12:13 AM , The Pack's said...: You are one tough cookie for running through that! And you know what?! You are going to ROCK Boston like they've never seen next year! Get well soon!
At April 13, 2011 at 12:59 AM , Anonymous said...: I think you are an amazing athlete and a great example. I love this blog Boston or no Boston. I think you should switch your tickets. Having NY on the horizon would be good psycholgically. A massive hug from a fellow runner in Italy.
At April 13, 2011 at 3:56 AM , Unknown said...: I'm so sorry that you won't get to do the big B this year, but you'll be back in future. How you come back fighting from the downs says so much more about you that how you ride the highs :) Stay strong and teach us all about how to overcome injuries!

I say switch the tickets- a) no point in torturing yourself and b) NY would be awesomeee. x

I blog about my training at http://cadsandscallywags.blogspot.com/
At April 13, 2011 at 5:00 AM , Anonymous said...: I'm SO sorry! You are so inspirational on and off the road, of course we are all going to keep reading your posts. I learn so much from your perspective on running, fitness, and life I would never stop reading your blog. I will be thinking of you out there, you are there in spirit regardless of what you do about the tickets. I hope you have a speedy recovery and you are exactly right, you will come back stronger than ever! **hugs**
At April 13, 2011 at 5:39 AM , Anonymous said...: of course a runner is just part of who u are, but when it gets taken away suddenly it feels like u are missing an important piece of your life. Only other runners understand this so use your blog as"therapy" we all get it and you will come back stronger mentally and physically. Injuries build character!
At April 13, 2011 at 6:22 AM , kate said...: Have you checked with a nutritionist? I have a runner friend with a similar fracture and it was mostly due to high mileage combined with a nutritional imbalance. Rest well and you'll be running again soon!
At April 13, 2011 at 6:39 AM , Sabrina @ Radioactive Runner said...: Oh, I am so so sorry to hear that you can't run Boston...
I can only imagine how heartbreaking it must be after working so hard and looking so forward to it for so long. You do have the right attitude though!! If you take care and allow yourself a full recovery you will be stronger than ever, not only Boston next year but many other races too!!!
Sending a virtual hug your way :)

About the tickets.. that's a hard one... but I think I would switch the tickets to NYC and run there.. that would be amazing!!
At April 13, 2011 at 6:48 AM , naomi said...: i am so sad for you! take care and heal well!
At April 13, 2011 at 8:38 AM , Anonymous said...: This seriously sucks!

But you are a strong woman and you will push through this...you'll come out stronger, smarter and just plain better!
At April 13, 2011 at 9:48 AM , Jessica said...: I have one, too. I was actually going to leave a comment a few days ago about your symptoms matching that of a stress fracture, but I didn't want to be presumptuous.

It's so frustrating, because these buggers don't present like normal stress fractures. My pain goes away into a run.

I've been pool running and cycling and trying to get better. I'm 2.5 weeks in, and this is gonna suck.

(I just healed two pelvic stress fractures, so trust me, it CAN be worse!)

anyway, my empathies. I am switching from the Cleveland MARATHON to the 10K walk. Ick.
At April 13, 2011 at 10:01 AM , Chelsea said...: Janae, I've secretly been stalking your blog, but this got me so emotional I felt I absolutely needed to comment. You're a smart, strong woman for recognizing your need to let your body heal. That in itself it a huge accomplishment. I can't wait to read about this part in your running journey. All runners unfortunately have to deal with set backs and I know you'll do a great job at shedding light on such an important topic. :) plus, with this extra time to prepare you I wouldn't be surprised if you own heart break hill & win Boston... just sayin'. :) on a happier and unrelated note I should mention I've become a crazed sugar & frozen yogurt addict. It's not completely your fault though. I've always felt Swedish fish make delicious pets. And lastly, if you think some Vitamin D night benefit you feel free to come to Florida and be my best friend. I'll buy you lots of food as a welcoming gift.
At April 13, 2011 at 12:11 PM , Anonymous said...: I am very, very sorry to hear this! That sucks so much and after reading your blog for several months, I know you are devastated. I know you'll be back in the game once you're healed and even more driven to get that sub three. Next year!

I would definitely change the tickets to NY!!!
At April 13, 2011 at 1:02 PM , d.a.r. said...: I am so sorry sweetie :(
At April 13, 2011 at 2:48 PM , Chunky Monkey said...: So sorry Janae. Donkey balls!

I pray you heal up soon and can get back to it.
At April 13, 2011 at 3:17 PM , martha said...: Just saw your blog from skinnyrunner's post...I'm feeling your pain! Not that I was supposed to run Boston...but I broke my neck sledding over Christmas and have not run since that beautiful morning December 26. I'm hoping to get back to pounding the pavement in May/June, maybe? Trying not to get my hopes up too much....but I can totally relate to this "no running" withdrawal that you're probably going through...you can do it, though...be patient and know that you'll be back to normal as soon as your body's healthy. :)
At April 13, 2011 at 3:33 PM , Anonymous said...: omg JANAE!!! I am SO sorry! This is not the end of your blog, I will keep reading, I PROMISE!!! :) Change the flight to NYC and run the NYCM, it's amazing!! You can come back to Boston next year and run it INJURY & PAIN FREE!:)
At April 13, 2011 at 8:06 PM , Laura said...: Switch plane tickets to NYC, and know that you have a free place to stay with me! (Only a few blocks from the finish in Central Park).

BIG HUGS!!!
At April 14, 2011 at 5:30 AM , 5 Miles Past Empty said...: I am so sorry to hear about your injury. That is terriblesauce. =/ But thankfully you have an answer to your pain and you can heal and come back stronger!!

And don't worry about losing blog readers!! Pretty sure everyone loves you for your personality, silliness, and we MUST see what you are going to eat next!! Plus we all suffer setbacks and it is great to see someone who takes it gracefully-like yourself. Hang in there!

And for the plane tickets-Totally use them for NY!!!!!
At April 14, 2011 at 3:49 PM , Pixie said...: I am so sorry to read this. I know your heartbroken. My heart aches for you. I think if you switch your ticket I will come to NY to cheer you on!
At April 14, 2011 at 3:49 PM , Pixie said...: I'm soooo sorry to read this, my heart is breaking for you. If you switch your ticket to NY I will come up and cheer you on!
At April 14, 2011 at 8:07 PM , Lisa said...: I haven't been making my usual blog rounds lately and I'm just reading this now. so sorry to hear the news, I can only imagine how hard it hurts. Take care of yourself and you'll come back stronger (physically & mentally)!

And...I don't think you have to worry about people not reading your blog just because you aren't running Monday. Your blog is incredible!
At April 17, 2011 at 1:42 AM , Anonymous said...: Ohhhh!! So sad!! But so temporary. And you're so young. You'll be kicking ass on your way to the Olympics in no time!

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